Faith
Don’t Let Vice Kill You
You’re likely a pretty good person. You go about your life doing the right thing every day. You have responsibilities to your wife and your family, and you do them admirably. You’re an above average husband and a dedicated father. This is the image the that World sees, and it’s the one that you hope you’re presenting. Your interior life, your spiritual life, is probably somewhere around average, though it does have one thing weighing it down. It’s a common struggle that we all share. We have a vice, a singular sin is holding us back, but we can’t seem to shake it. I call it our “principal sin.”
We’ve grown pretty comfortable with sin. It’s almost as if we have a certain level of tolerance for it and as long as we’re within that tolerance, we let things slide. We accept a certain level of uncharity, a certain level of laziness in our prayer life, and a certain level of whatever else our particular character deems ok. We’re comfortable, and it’s incredibly dangerous. Sin presents a real and present danger in your life. Small sin takes root, grabs hold of you, and branches out. Realistically, we will all have some sin in our lives as perfection isn’t possible in this life. Yet, our goal needs to be getting our sin portfolio, if you will, to contain only the smallest and innocuous sins imaginable. Don’t let sin ruin you.
This path to perfection, wherein we remove serious sins from our portfolio, is a lifelong journey. We’re talking about changing thoughts, attitudes, and behaviors that we may have had for decades. The time required is intensive because it requires our sole focus. You simply can’t take on all of your sin at the same time. Instead, you have to focus on one at a time, a process that may take months. Yet, it’s focus that’ll win this battle. It’s focus and attention that will get you to a place that you didn’t think was possible.
There’s something incredibly freeing about living the life that you’ve always wanted. A life free of the burden of temptation towards your principal sin. Surely, as you work through this process, the name of your principal sin will change, but the importance of rooting it out of your life is unchanging. Your life is significantly impacted by your current principal sin in ways that you can’t recognize, because you’ve been stuck for so long. It takes courage to challenge something you may now consider to be unbeatable. It takes tremendous courage if you’ve been entrenched for years.
We all loathe the habitual nature of our principal sin. In the back of our minds in the Confession line, the thought creeps up that we can’t beat it. We’re frustrated that we’re back in this line, for the same reason. It makes us feel weak. It makes us feel powerless. Yet, when we start beating back our principal sin, we get a glimpse into the true power of God. When we cooperate with His power, doing something that’s His Will, things happen.
The truth is, we aren’t fond of our principal sin, but there is something alluring about it still. While we’re trapped, we also acknowledge that it isn’t worth it. Why run the slightest risk of losing what you’ve got? Why run the slightest risk of missing out on a life of happiness?
The question becomes, where do I start? In the vast array of our spiritual life, how do we know where to start chipping away? Identify the habitual sins that you commit, and from that list, identify the most serious. Serious is a relative term, because you could be trapped in sin that right now is incredibly destructive, or you could be trapped in a gateway sin that, based on your personality or history, is a fast track to destructive sin. Once you’ve identified the most serious, you’ve found your principal sin. Understand everything about that sin. Why do you do it? What are your triggers? How did it start? Why does it continue? Do other people face it? How have they been successful? Ask these questions and more. Then, devise a plan, build in accountability, and focus. Track the number of days that you’ve been able to beat it. Pray constantly and specifically. Go to Daily Mass or stop by Adoration. Go crazy attacking, beating it down, and cooperating with God’s power.
After some wins and losses, some victories and setbacks, with enough grit and determination, you’ll beat your principal sin. You’ll finally know freedom and have the strength of character, self control, and depth of interior life to keep it subdued. Then, it’s time to identify your new principal sin.
Beating sin in your life is a lifelong process, one filled with difficulty, joy, sadness, and awe at God’s willingness to be so active in your life. And yet, it’s the lifelong process of a saint.
Try A Different Mass
We all have personal preferences. Our personality usually shows forth when we choose to act on those preferences. For example, when it comes to loading the dishwasher, I have a very specific way that I like to have things organized. It’s partly because I like order and partly because I’m incredibly inefficient when I don’t load as I normally do. Our personal preferences even show forth at Mass. Each Mass has its own culture, so if you don’t like the atmosphere at your Mass, try a different one.
Some Masses are more orderly, some are more relaxed, and others are more contemplative. When you struggle with a Mass culture or the general atmosphere, it doesn’t mean you need to change Parishes, maybe you just need to change Mass times.
For whatever reason, the time of Mass brings a different crowd of people. This is never more clear than at the earliest Mass on Sunday morning. You’re more likely to see men in suits and it’ll probably be among the more quiet of Mass experiences that you’ve had. A noon-time Mass will be flooded with families and there tends to be a lot of socializing. If you’ve done all that you’re willing to do in terms of changing your regular Mass time, you can certainly try a different parish. Communities and community standards vary, and so you might find what you’re looking for the next town over.
Mass, and your parish community, should feel like home. There’s likely a Mass that fits your experience and personal preferences for culture and dress code. Find that Mass and remove these distractions so you can focus on why you’re really there.
Small Blessings Lead You
God’s plan for your life is multidimensional. Thousands of small events, shifts, and changes of plans lead you to the exact right spot, at the exact right moment for you to do what you were made to do. I grew up all around the world, and it took some pretty big roadblocks to divert me to Franciscan University where I met Alison. The rest is history. Had Benedict not come along two years ago, I’d probably still be at the non-profit, working a job that I didn’t absolutely love, and held back from realizing my true potential. Yet, all of these small blessings, though some were challenging to accept at the time, have brought me here, where I belong.
Although it’s usually unclear at the time, blessings are always nudging you in the right direction. They may cause our life to be uncomfortable for a time, but only because the place where we were was holding us back in some way. The truth is, most days, we don’t know where we’re going. I don’t know where I’ll be in 10 years, but I have an idea. So, I make my best guess, while at the same time, realizing that a greater plan is at play. I’ve always found it to be true that my best guess is enough to get things moving, and God will make corrections as necessary.
There are endless roads, options, and opportunities in our free society. That adds an element of difficulty, though a most welcome one, to our life’s journey. It underscores the importance of continuing to pray for grace and guidance, as well as the role that openness plays in this journey. The more we’re open to God at work in our life, the more amazing our life will be.
It’s fun to look back from time to time to see how various events have brought you to the place where you are today. Everything makes sense in hindsight when you have the benefit of clarity. It’s an important moment to acknowledge God’s power and grand design, and to recommit yourself to cooperating in the plan.
Small blessings guide us to grand destinations. Through prayer, diligence, and fidelity to God’s will, we, too, can be like Abraham and enjoy the fruits of serving God well.
Do the Right Thing
I once had a boss who told me that it’s never too late to do the right thing. Oftentimes when we realized that we’ve made a mistake, our first reaction is to attempt to shift the blame or cover it up. We’re usually not that successful and a small mistake grows into a big problem. Our anxiety levels rise and things spiral out of control. Instead of procrastinating, when you realize that you’ve made a mistake, just fix it.
Putting off doing the right thing for tomorrow is always appealing. Tomorrow, in almost every circumstance, seems better than today. If we’re waiting, then we don’t have to take action today, or tell anyone about our mistake. Usually, however, change never comes. Tomorrow shows up, and we defer for another day, compounding the problem. Why not now? Why don’t you start to immediately correct the error? After all, you’re already thinking about it. You get to choose the start line.
We’re all human. Whether you’ve made a mistake at work, with your kids, or with your wife, the best course of action is immediate correction. In fact, admitting when you’ve made a mistake might win you the admiration of those around you. These days, no one wants to be accountable and everyone is peacocking. This isn’t helping anyone. The fact is, no one regrets doing the right thing. No one regrets the relief that comes with admitting your mistake and moving on. Today is the perfect day to make a change.
Mistakes happen, both big and small. Don’t let a mistake dominate your life. Admit your fault, take corrective action, and move on.
Dress Up for Mass
Growing up, my family always dressed up for Mass. Though I recognize how expensive it must’ve been for my parents to dress three growing kids in nice clothes for Church, my brother and I always had on slacks and occasionally a blazer while my sister wore nice dresses. These days, Sunday is just about the only day during the week when I dress up. As my small business has me mostly doing web design for clients during the week, I’m typically wearing a graphic t-shirt and some plaid shorts. There’s something really nice about Sunday morning putting on a suit, tie, and some nice shoes.
There’s always been talk about the appropriateness of attire at Mass. Standards vary in all regions of the country and everyone certainly has an opinion. While I don’t necessarily think that a suit is a must, I do think that at the very least a button down shirt and slacks are required. If you’d dress up for a date, to go to court, to attend a funeral, to go to a nice dinner, or to meet the President, you should dress up for Mass.
Mass is a challenging thing for a human to experience and process. The supernatural experiences aren’t generally perceived by the eye, so to most of us, Mass looks like a guy we know up front delivering a speech and sharing a very meager snack. If we could see the reality of what actually happens, we’d change a lot of our attitudes. We’d watch measly bread turn into human tissue, body and soul of our Savior, we’d watch an entire complement of saints and angels surrounding the altar, adoring. If we could actually see, we’d watch people light up as they received Communion, we’d watch venial sins be forgiven, we’d see Jesus Himself giving the homily. If we were able to see all that, every week, we’d sell everything that we had to afford a nice suit.
Going to Mass is going to someone’s house. We’ve been invited to share and eat together. So when we dress up for Mass, we not only show respect to the host, no pun intended, but we show respect to God’s house. What we wear communicates our attitude, which is why we don’t chew gum, bring McDonald’s, text our friends, or sip our morning coffee during the liturgy. We dress up because we want to be respectful. On a more basic level, our clothes get us in the right mindset. School uniforms prepare students for learning. Gym clothes get us ready to workout. Pajamas help us prepare for bed while comfy sweatpants help us unwind at the end of the day. In the same way, our Sunday best get us ready to worship and praise the Creator of the universe. Clothes direct our thoughts and actions and so we should dress in a manner that befits Mass.
Wear nice clothes to Mass and make sure your kids do, too.
Endure Misery
Life is full of a range of emotions. There are days when we’re over the moon and others when we’re down in the dumps. There are events that lift our spirits and others that drag us to dark places. While we’re sure to have periods of great joy and fulfillment, we’ll also have prolonged periods of deep misery. We seem to easily acknowledge that our good feelings are temporary, yet we fail to do the same to bad feelings. Misery is temporary.
When you’re experiencing a period of misery, find a way out of it. What’s the root problem and what can you do it resolve it? How can you minimize the impact that misery is having on your life? It’s true that some factors are outside of our control, but others are very much within our grasp. If your job is causing you to be miserable, maybe you could look for a better one. If your life choices are leading to misery, perhaps you seek help. If your family situation is causing misery, it may be wise to finally resolve those longstanding issues.
We tend to only seek out God when times are tough. When all is well, our mind tells us that we don’t need God. In difficult times or in challenging times, we seek out God asking for aid. When you’re in a period of misery, lean into your prayer life. Seek out help from Mary, your patron saint, and anyone else you can think of! Acknowledge God’s great power and love and understand that prayer really works!
Misery will happen and when it does, try to work through the core issues and be sure to turn to God in prayer and ask for assistance.
Embrace Confession
In what I suspect is a universal experience among Catholics, I always get nervous in the Confession line. Despite my years of frequenting the Sacrament, there’s always a bit of a pit in my stomach that eases the moment that Confession is over. While this pre-Sacrament anxiety is a momentary discomfort, I’d hate to think that it alone is keeping people away from the grace of Confession. When you consider the power of the Sacrament, what’s the worst that could happen?
We all have anxiety and bear the invisible burden of guilt because our sins. These things won’t simply go away on their own. No matter how big or small our sins are, there seems to be a weight that we carry around, only realizing its presence as we leave the confessional. For whatever reason, I always feel lighter as I walk away and complete my penance. I feel like a new person because I no longer have to carry around the burden of my sins. The anxiety that I feel right before Confession is more like a gentle reminder as to why this Sacrament is so important than it is a punishment for my indiscretions. It’s a tool to harness and use to make better decisions in the future and the anxiety always breaks when I’ve received absolution.
Naming your sins is extremely painful. Despite the absolute seal of privacy that the Sacrament affords us, we can find ourselves quibbling or struggling to find the words to name what we’ve done. The indictment against us is clear as day in our minds, but we struggle to verbalize it. That’s because it’s difficult for us to face our true selves in the Sacrament. It’s hard to realize just how far we’ve fallen and how foolish our sins have been. Sin didn’t live up to the promises that it made, and we feel dumb for falling into its trap. Use the discomfort of naming your failings as a motivation to not commit those sins again. Make it the last time that you ever have to confess that particular sin.
We let fear creep up in our mind. We fear someone outside of the confessional hearing us, the priest recognizing our voice, or even being yelled at. Yet, those fears are baseless. I’ve been going to Confession for almost 20 years, all across the country and around the world, and I’ve never been yelled at once. There were challenging Confessions, and there were uncomfortable ones, that’s for sure, but I’ve never been scolded. When I do have a difficult Confession, I’ve come to regard it as it truly is, God challenging me to step up my game. While Confession is meant to be an ocean of mercy and a bath of grace, it’s not meant to be an enabler. If Confession was an easy out, there’d be nothing stopping you from going out, committing the same sin again, and then coming back. It should challenge you to be a better person, and it should remind you of the vast depths of God’s love. There’s nothing to fear in the Sacrament.
Three minutes of discomfort in the Sacrament is a small price to pay for a do over. Better than carrying around guilt and better than falling deeper into the snare of sin, Reconciliation stands at the edge of the World, catching souls before they fall off into the abyss. Although you may never get over pre-sacramental anxiety, it is but a small reminder of the life that you’re giving up in exchange for all of the love and promises of a God who loves you.
Nocturnal Adoration
When I was in Middle School, my Mom and I signed up for the local chapter of the Nocturnal Adoration Society. Once a month, we’d get up and go to a Holy Hour in the early morning hours, I believe it was around 2am. Since then, I’ve been a member of multiple parishes where 24-hour adoration was offered. There’s something really special and still about scheduled Adoration at night.
When you get up and go to Adoration while the rest of the world sleeps, you’re able to achieve a deeper level of prayer and quiet. There’s nothing to distract you at 2am, other than a nagging desire to sleep. Everything is quiet, still, and silent. You’re able to direct all of your attention and focus on just prayer. It’s a state that’s difficult to achieve during the day when your phone may be buzzing, the UPS man comes to your door, or any number of other distractions creep up.
Nocturnal Adoration isn’t easy, that’s for sure. If you have kids, there’s an ever-changing work schedule, or even if you have a medical condition that’s agitated with interruptions to your sleep schedule. If you face any of these challenges, I have no good answer for you. Yet, I’d encourage you, if you ever have the opportunity, even just once, to go and pray in Adoration for an hour early in the morning, take it. Everyone deserves to know the peace that the morning stillness can bring to a restless heart.
Give to the Beggar
Earlier this summer, Alison’s family was in town and we made the trek into DC. While there, I was particularly struck with the number of beggars on the street. Certainly there were more on the street than in previous trips due in part to the nicer weather. Yet, for whatever reason, I was particularly struck with compassion. At one point, I saw a man literally eating trash off of the street, right here, in our Nation’s capital. I think that many of us refrain from giving beggars money for a number of reasons, but lately my thinking has been evolving.
In the old model, when I would see beggars, I may have questioned their validity. Certainly you’ve seen investigative journalists do stories on your local news revealing so-called beggars on street corners who walk away and get into nice cars. We’ve also questioned how a beggar may spend any money that we give them. Will they buy cigarettes, alcohol, or drugs? In those cases, wouldn’t our “gift” contribute to their continued problems? We’ve also convinced ourselves that there are government programs to help these people, and while there certainly are such programs, they can be hard to access.
Although this old way does have some merit, I’ve started to move towards a new way of thinking. I think that if I give money to someone who asks, the sin is not mine if they use it to buy drugs. Instead, the greater sin would be to refuse to help if I had the means to help. I’ve begun to carry around small amounts of cash in my wallet. My system is simple; if I see a beggar and feel moved by compassion in my gut, then I’ll pull out my wallet and help. We need to get back to a point where we see all people as humans, looking on all people with compassion. We know what helpless and hopeless looks like, and in those cases, we can help with a clean conscience. I’m proposing that we take each situation on a case-by-case basis and that we trust our own intuition.
I don’t think there’s a wrong approach. If you decide to not give directly to beggars, but instead to charities that reach out and help them, that’s a good thing. If you give small amounts of cash or restaurant gift cards to beggars on the street, that’s a good thing. The important thing in this whole discussion is that you help, either by doing it yourself or by empowering an organization to do so. Let’s never forget about these poor souls who need our help.
Refuse to Fall
There comes a point in our lives when we have to stand up to sin. Sin, both great and small, has the ability to divert us away from the path that we wish to follow. We’re only overcome by sin when we consent to it, and so we must summon the courage to say no more.
Use the Sacraments of Reconciliation and the Eucharist to gain the graces you need for battle. Fortify yourself through prayer and good works daily. Suit up and fight when temptation confronts you. Avoid directly causing temptation and track your victories.
Sin depends on your complicity. Don’t give it the time of day.